Sunday, June 9, 2013

dropping back and playing chicken, part two

I did manage to drop back on my own on thursday, much to my teacher came over to help me and I shooed her away, as I wanted to do a couple more hanging back attempts to warm up both my back and my courage. As I knew she didn't go far away, I realized I was going to have to get this dropping back thing over with..and I went for it. It wasn't so bad, really, maybe I was just in a bit of a shock about it. I tried to imagine my teacher giving me an assist to come back up..but that only went so in hands staying on the floor still! and then, luckily, she brought me back up. Landing with straight arms is still a work in progress, but I can feel the difference it makes.

What no one mentioned before was how much of an adrenaline rush it turned out to be. Even the following day, I didn't really feel like I NEEDED coffee. It doesn't seem to happen as strongly when my teacher assists me.

Last night, after a restful day of doing feldenkrais lessons, cooking, reading and such, I saw a mouse in my apartment. Grr. I bought traps late last night, but then I didn't have the heart to set them. I guess I felt sorry for the mouse. It's a big building and I am going to see if I hear the mouse again...I did squeal like a girl. So embarrassing, but only the mouse heard me. The whole thing did throw off my sleeping, again...just the start of overwhelm mode that will only get worse as the month goes on. Today, I didn't have enough sleep and my right shoulder is sore from too much computer drafting at work, and the floor felt a lot further away, so I was back to playing chicken again. Maybe tomorrow I will feel more brave, and more flexible. I have to manage it on my own again soon or else fear may set in.


  1. Well done, congratulations Suzanne, it brings up all kinds of feelings when you first land one, surprise, joy and the adrenalin rush, but above all satisfaction, after all that work you finally let go of the fear and trusted your body to control the decent.

  2. Thanks! i think i was in shock afterwards for the remainder of my practice that day. managed again today, still very very weird feeling to let go and land on the floor, since i dont have the bendiest backbend. going back up on my own is a complete mystery..but one i now think i might be able to learn in time.

  3. I still don't have a bendy back, a lot is in the legs. Emailed you.